CBD was unexpectedly discovered through an association with a juice and smoothie company. As part of the company's routine, various products were received for evaluation. During a visit to the company's headquarters, a bag of CBD cookies was found on a desk.
Driven by hunger, a query was made to a colleague regarding the cookies' psychoactive effects, to which a definitive denial was received.
Assured of their non-intoxicating nature, two cookies were consumed, revealing a profound sensation after approximately two hours.
Describing this sensation proves challenging, but an attempt shall be made.
A profound sense of connectedness with oneself and the boundless energy encompassing the planet was experienced.
Notably, anxiety, which had been a pervasive part of one's personality and emotional structure, dissipated. Throughout 32 years, alcohol, pharmaceutical antidepressants, anti-anxiety medications, marijuana, uppers, and downers were consciously avoided.
This single CBD encounter unveiled a previously unrecognized aspect of psychological well-being.
Despite years of dedicated efforts to pursue happiness and address personal barriers through therapy, writing, and discussions, certain behavioral patterns remained elusive, concealed from conscious awareness.
The inquiry arose regarding the presence of anxiety or depression, an idea swiftly dismissed based on perpetual engagement in activities and a thriving business, serving as a protective barrier against delving into underlying emotions that have remained suppressed since childhood.
A single encounter with CBD engendered a sense of its distinctiveness, owing to its remarkably non-toxic nature. Seeking counsel from esteemed individuals, including mentor Fred Bisci, confirmation was sought regarding the compound's safety. The foremost concern revolved around evading the introduction of heavily processed substances into the system. Subsequent research revealed a dearth of literature aligning with the envisioned application of CBD.
The objective with CBD encompassed a focused exploration of obscured fragments of childhood memories. Aspiring to become a prolific writer, akin to the exhaustive 11,000-page fourth step of AA recovery, which entails a "searching and fearless moral inventory" in written form, the broader relevance of this practice for self-improvement was recognized, extending beyond addiction mitigation.
From the perspective of drawing upon years of sobriety, this inventory entails a comprehensive self-assessment, encompassing character flaws, life events, responses, behaviors, and any subject meriting elucidation to explore the intricate facets of life. Undertaking this profound step, which is believed to demand a span of two to three years for thorough completion, holds substantial power within the realm of self-help recovery.
Upon the initiation of written expression regarding emotional constipation, a notable increase in bodily pressure was perceived in relation to the utilization of the CBD compound. The conscious state induced by CBD facilitated heightened focus. CBD, on occasion, evoked anxiety and intensified hyperfocus on a lifelong, generalized state of anxiety. This sensation bears resemblance to the commonly described paranoid effects associated with marijuana usage. The cannabis plant, in my perspective, functions as an enhancer of the existing mental state rather than an agent of fundamental alteration. It amplifies pre-existing traits, be they sensitivity or callousness. The catalyst for change lies within the individual, with the substance merely serving as a facilitator.
In the context of CBD usage, higher dosages were administered, resulting in a discernible efficacy, as evidenced by an increased compulsion for prolific writing. Over a period of two years, a substantial corpus of approximately 13,000 pages was accumulated within the confines of my Google Drive, comprising 35 distinct volumes dedicated to subjects of unwavering lucidity.
Throughout this process, the realization materialized that the primary recipient of the written content was not external, but rather the internal self. The objective entailed the meticulous clarification of subjects of personal concern and ardor within the confines of the cognitive realm. Occasional contemplation of the future audience envisioned young progeny perusing the words as instructive guidance for their respective odysseys through life.
The potential life-saving impact of CBD is undeniable. The type of depression experienced does not lead to self-harm tendencies. For decades, a sense of vibrancy and enthusiasm for life coexisted with an underlying feeling of something missing. Despite having everything, a basic anxiety remained, unyielding to extensive personal efforts. Just as some individuals cannot break the four-minute mile no matter how hard they try, reaching a limit in self-improvement endeavors is not uncommon. Similar limitations can be observed in conversations with older individuals, where progress appears to be impeded.
CBD can be viewed as an intervention, impervious to external opinions. The number of years maintaining sobriety allows one to disregard judgments from any authority figure, including within the Alcoholics Anonymous organization.
CBD may not be suitable for everyone, and experience alone cannot determine its efficacy for newcomers in 12-step recovery. It has the potential to either be beneficial or detrimental, but comprehensive research or studies are required to provide conclusive results.
Observationally, working with CBD can present challenges for individuals lacking self-awareness or engaging in certain introspective practices. Additionally, those with addictive tendencies may misuse CBD as a mere means of alleviating discomfort without addressing underlying issues.
Frustration with CBD often stems from unrealistic expectations, perceiving it as a magic solution without the need for active participation. It is crucial to understand that CBD, much like water or air, affects one's biochemistry, but its effects alone are insufficient. If CBD is used as a tool to open pathways and mend broken aspects of life, it can be beneficial when combined with appropriate approaches.
The work undertaken does not generate controversy. Embarking on a CBD journey is not a sign of weakness. Instead, CBD has the potential to enhance one's abilities as a parent or spouse, potentially softening aggressiveness and promoting a greater willingness to apologize when necessary. Although the possibility of a placebo effect exists, the rapid and dramatic transformations observed during CBD engagement suggest otherwise.
CBD helped many for sure accomplish things that they simply were not accomplishing. For example many became capable of sitting still and focusing on meditation which they had been practicing for many years of their lives and had not been accomplishing. They read a dozen books on the subject and had instruction from great teachers and they couldn’t see what they were supposed to be seeing on what meditation was and it happened for them on their own. They figured out what meditation was finally by doing it. They realized for themselves that meditation was not a spiritual practice it was an intellectual practice and that was their big breakthrough. They realized that meditation was them learning to focus, to create stillness in their minds from all the constant activity and thought processes.
CBD is a talking plant medicine. It is also a listening plant medicine it can amplify both of those physical experiences if that is what you set your intention on. You can stay very grounded with CBD whereas the full cannabis plant with THC is too intense. With the THC in the compound you can go deep intoA fantastic trance.
CBD has proven to be instrumental in accomplishing previously elusive goals. One notable achievement was the ability to engage in stillness and focused meditation, despite extensive prior practice spanning 25 years. Despite studying various books and receiving guidance from esteemed teachers, the true essence of meditation had remained elusive. However, through personal experience with CBD, a breakthrough occurred. Meditation revealed itself as an intellectual practice rather than a spiritual one, emphasizing the cultivation of focus and the creation of mental stillness amid the constant stream of thoughts and mental activity.
CBD possesses unique qualities as a plant medicine, enabling both expressive and receptive experiences. Its effects can amplify verbal expression and facilitate attentive listening, depending on one's intentions. In contrast, the full cannabis plant containing THC may induce intense effects that surpass the groundedness provided by CBD. THC has the potential to engender profound trance-like states.